This place is so cold, so worthless Yet everything I am still resides here I bring it out when the curtain falls Never strove for a heart of gold Nor a beautiful soul Never had a dream so dark, so pitiful I’m grounded, so they consume me part by part Stained liver, blackened lungs, static heart And I’m poisoning them all Just a little taste of darkness And a portion of the spoils To be alive, yet so dead, so beautiful It’s all I have, down and out Is it pride, greed, or something else? You’ll never know, and I’ll never tell I’ll wear the skin and fill the space Pinned and bruised, masked and made I’m the one they’ll never forgive I’m the one they’ll never forgive The one they’ll never forget The one they’ll never forgive I’m the one they’ll never forgive The one they’ll never forget The one they’ll never forgive Never loved, so never will love Mine are all the broken parts Far from the first, I won’t be the last Just so you know…

They’re all standing in a row Let’s see how fast they fall And when they hit the ground, we’ll know Just see how far the apple falls A picture to paint, a tale to weave Anything to maintain the image One cut deep, two cuts deeper Three and then one for good measure I don’t know what a bed is Outside the concrete floor Medicated far too young On pain, pills and alcohol I see her standing all alone Let’s see how far trust will go And when she hits the ground, I’ll know When the fight and flight is gone A barely dug hole, prepared and premade A sorry soul for a shallow grave Worst kept secret, soon to be found Barely two feet beneath the ground Hands are shaking, stomach floats Too far gone was long ago A future I dreamt of for so long It was written in her blood Have you ever wondered what it’s like An immortal obsession To take someone’s life I don’t think I thought of the other side Just in the wrong place at the wrong time Something has taken over me From fear, to thrill, to disbelief I don’t think I Thought of the other side Now the future stares at me Never see the light of day again I don’t think I Thought of the other side Concrete walls and steel drains Never be alive again

I have a picture in my mind Of just how things should be I know your eyes were destined To see right through me No love so genuine Was made for the likes of mine Should I not bite the hand; When I know the food is poison? Don’t hold it over my head I’m a lost cause there’s no redeeming Don’t hold it over my head I’m a lost cause there’s no redeeming For every lion, there’s a fawn Who knows she must outrun them all Don’t hold it over my head I’m a lost cause there’s no redeeming Don’t hold it over my head I’m a lost cause there’s no redeeming For every eagle, there is prey And I’ll be damned if I’m ever that again Your world is glorious to me I’m hiding from my fears You’re the knight, but I’m no princess I’m just fond of beautiful dresses I love the sound of your voice Though it tears through my very core Your words, although endearing I know there’s not one meant for me Don’t hold it over my head I’m a lost cause there’s no redeeming Don’t hold it over my head I’m a lost cause there’s no redeeming For every lion, there’s a fawn Who knows she must outrun them all For every eagle, there is prey And I’ll be damned if I’m ever that again

They’ve left us here, at the graveyard Some provisions, then saved their own skins Nothing here but barren stones and salt And more mouths than stores could cater for The man has blood on his hands All those others, faceless, nameless From the blade in their hearts The rope at their throats Too many broken bones Now they’re the ghosts And now, help me Lord, he has his eyes set on me! We pass the rocks as the sun stills Leave some stores, then head for the hills Or they’ll eat us all, alive and breathing still The man has blood on his hands A sly look in his eye Nothing noble on his mind There’s no compromise Power hungry with a thirst for me With this man I’m forced to lay Lest I face the same fate They called before the turning hour The low man and his quest for power The tyrant shields his own cowardice To mask his crimes Dark nights and short sight This hunger, so short lived To be his undoing Would I rather die? I think I’d rather die? He’s taken everything Nothing left to barter with They weren’t his to take, yet they became ours to grieve Was it as hidden as we were led to believe? All we have is revenge, and justice swift and sweet Too bad you’ll never go home Too bad you’ll never go home

(Instrumental)

I am outside I see through black and white And blue… It’s cold, here outside Red-eyed Waiting… I’m blind… I’m blind… I’ve seen the light, it towers over me Keep it safe in sight, though it no longer comforts me I’ve heard the lies, they hover over me Keep them safe in mind, somehow they comfort me I’ve outrun the fire, now it’s gaining track So why can’t I feel the heat? My innocence, I sacrificed Every word you spoke, a lie Played into your foolish games I fell into your palm And waited there… I’m outside staring in Wishing that I couldn’t see a thing If only I could close my eyes I’d still hear every word, amplified Still hear every outburst, every fight Every ounce of your cruelty My innocence, I sacrificed Every word you spoke, a lie Played into your foolish games I fell into your palm And waited there… I waited there… I’ve seen the light, it beckons for me Keep it safe in sight, it’s now all I see I’ve heard the lies, broken the hold they have on me Keep them safe in mind, only to remind me Never again… Never again… Never again… Never again… Some windows Can be broken Some soft souls Can’t be saved I am outside I see through black and white It’s cold outside Red-eyed…

Hightail Leave now Get out I don’t even want to say your name Just the thought of you brings too much infamy You don’t deserve to breathe Lucky for you, we don’t make the rules If we had our way, you’d be in an unmarked grave Decaying somewhere even mould wouldn’t grow Far away, and then further more Forever and a day, and a day beyond It’s some sick joke, you’re let to be Just the thought of you brings too much infamy You don’t deserve any of this You belong in Hell and nowhere else If we had our way, you’d be in an unmarked grave Decaying somewhere even maggots wouldn’t go Far away, and then further more Forever and a day, and a day beyond If we had our way, you’d be in an unmarked grave Decaying somewhere even mould wouldn’t grow Far away, and then further more Forever and a day, and a day beyond

You couldn’t love her You couldn’t love me Now she sells herself down on the corner street As for me, well I was determined to be found Instead I lost even more of myself to someone else You couldn’t provide for her Or provide for me All you brought was violence, drink and poverty Groomed and bruised and used I bleed behind closed doors All I know is that I won’t be what I was before Bury William’s orange, the white and the green Until even the mirror believes this is me As I’ve always been You could provide for her Just could not for me But I will never sell myself down on the corner street I will take your name I will call you kin So I won’t have to think of who I am or where I’ve been Bury William’s orange, the white and the green Until even the mirror believes this is me As I’ve always been This is me As I’ve always been This is me as I’ve always been This is me, I swear I’ve always been Nothing hidden, nothing secret I’ve said it as I have lived it Signed my life as it was seen To care for those who needed me Now I love as I would want Now I live as they do not This is me as I’ve always been This is me, I swear I’ve always been Nothing hidden, nothing secret I’ve said it as I have lived it Signed my life as it was seen To care for those who needed me Now I love as I would want Now I live as they do not Never was, never will be Searching for what completes me Never has, never found Never mine, never ours

There’s a door no-one opens anymore There’s noise everyone ignores Those pleas and cries we’ve all heard a thousand times or more No-one’s listening anymore Brother please, will you help me? It’s not a conscience thing I’ll keep your secret here Brother please, I’ll help you if you help me I can’t stay here Fixing for 30 years She’s just a whore, the one no-one cares for A thousand more, in four years of torment The Less Dead: Never there and nothing left Nothing to mourn, for all the fortune they bore Brother please, will you help me? It’s not a conscience thing I’ll keep your secret here Brother please, I’ll help you if you help me I can’t stay here Fixing for 30 years I’ll help your case if you help mine I’ve got to lie to prove I’m not lying One surreptitious confession away Be my confidant and apostate I’ll help you if you help me I’ve got to lie to prove I’m sincere Please legitimise my claims I’d rather fry than fade away There’s a house they don’t walk by anymore There’s noise, so they close the doors Secret lives, all to easy too hide Easy to forget, never there and nothing left The scars and rapes, the blood and the pain If you see anything, just look the other way Just look the other way

Do you feel faint? Does your body ache? Is it disease or age? Are you resigned to the pain? It’s a free-for-all The enemy you didn’t know The friend you thought you had And here I’ll keep you safe Under my wing, tempting fate Or perhaps I’ll give you yours… Can you face the cold? The constant vertigo? The headaches, delirium? Have you given up? Just close your… Just close your tired eyes Just close your tired eyes Just close your tired eyes Sleep It’s a free-for-all The enemy you didn’t know The friend you thought you had And here I’ll keep you safe Under my wing, tempting fate Or perhaps I’ll give you yours If I can teach you one thing: Morphine is bliss, until it kills Then it’s even more It’s just a prick, barely anything A gentle sleep Then instant release

Street walker Sly grogger War bride Razors and wine Affray Arms exchange Cheap blades Grog and cocaine You know where I stand And after hours, where I am The man in my bed is my hired gun My charm isn’t lost on him As it’s lost on you… Red rouge Fur and jewels Fox eyes Vixen smile Vile tongue Crim consort Thieves’ fence All bets are on You know where I stand And in the mornings, where I am My sweet side shows (wife, mother, lady) with the sun Then evening comes Then the evening comes… After 6 we crack the wine Both red and white and do some lines A nod to you and yours, to me and mine Several shots of grog down and more shots fired A few pence here and a few pence there More rings than fingers and furs and glamour Gambling and whiskey, arms and moonshine Make our pounds now while the bloom’s still vibrant After 6 we pop the corks Place out bets and shoot our shots Pitch the bottles and bring the riots Several shots of grog down and more shots fired More shots fired… You know where I stand And after hours, where I am The man in my bed is my hired gun My charm isn’t lost on him You know where I stand And in the mornings, where I am My sweet side shows (wife, mother, lady) with the sun Then evening comes Say goodnight, Finger Wharf You’ll be a few denizens down by dawn Say goodnight, King’s Cross You’ll be a few denizens down by dawn By dawn

It’s all but a mystery what you did to me What you do to me I’ve got five fingers raised More than each time you’ve shown your face All these years and it’s not enough I never lowered myself to want your love It makes no difference to me I’m not fine, but that you’ll never see Seasons come and seasons go Change comes fast and change comes slow Doubt you hold any regret For stealing away my innocence It’s been so many years I can barely remember your face You thought you were the saviour You were the villain in the making Is it all on me? You can’t be dead to me If you were never here to begin with Just the relic of some memory I’d convinced myself was mine Why? I’ve asked myself so many times You can’t rationalise with he whose heart can’t see past his own pride There’s too much love there for what’s in the mirror Just a relic of a fantasy That never was to be It’s all but a mystery what you did to me What you do to me I’ve got no real memories of you Whose love should be unconditional All these years and it’s not enough You couldn’t bring yourself to care at all You don’t know what you don’t know I’ll have to reap what you have sown Is it all on me? You can’t be dead to me If you were never here to begin with Just the relic of some memory I’d convinced myself was mine Why? I’ve asked myself so many times You can’t rationalise with he whose heart can’t see past his own pride There’s too much love there for what’s in the mirror Just a relic of a fantasy That never was to be You’re nothing to me You’re nothing to me You’re nothing to me Less than nothing to me (Note: GAP) There’s some things you can’t leave behind A regret of yours is a lifetime of mine Left guessing, blaming and questioning Nothing here, yet nothing missing And you said that she should have seen it coming How could she have seen it coming? More than once we dined on dust And prayed the roof would stay above Six nights of seven, we slept in the ashes A devastation you sent us in And for what? It seems there’s nothing there for you or me To forget is a privilege The one only you had It wasn’t your life or limb to give Yet you spent it like it wasn’t worth a cent And now, here I am Knowing where I stand But not who I am Or where I would be But now I know… It’s all on you It’s all on you It’s all on you It’s all on you It’s all on you what you did you me What you do to me…

(Shut up Henry…) You can see the rage Coursing through my veins It’s so clear More than a mere feeling And it’s spreading now Creeping further down Taking more of me With every breath I breathe (Shut up Henry…) You can see the rage Coursing through my veins It’s so clear More than a mere feeling So far past fear I’ve reached apathy A rage so strong It’s torn right out of me…